Patience

Here we go, my favorite word (NOT) Patience. How many people really like to be told to have patiences? Not me.. And if you know me, you know I like to go nonstop and expect things to happen on my time. I have had multiple times in my life that I needed to be patient and I constantly struggled because I didn’t think it was possible to continue to wait for God’s plan when I knew what was best. Writing this, I am realizing how dumb that sounds.

Good thing I am here to help and give you some pointers so you don’t have to think like I did and get let down over and over. You see, I was always rushing through school to graduate, rushing Zoey’s little baby years because I couldn’t wait to get more sleep (going to High School on two hours of sleep is not the easiest), rushed wanting to get engaged, get a house, finish LVN school so I could start my career, rushing to get all the experience in I could to make my resume look better, rush to get back into school to further my education, rush to get pregnant with Owen so I could plan accordingly, rush, rush, rush. If your like this at all, STOP! Sit down, drink you a smoothie and chill for once in your life. The world still turns, you will still get to go to school, get married, have kids, buy/build your house. But for just one moment sit and enjoy what you have. If your young and without kids, go enjoy places alone or with someone without chasing toddlers around. If you have kids, just sit and watch them play, play a game with them. You will forever want this time back as the days and months go on.

Just have patience that God is going to get you where you are supposed to be. He will only let things happen on his time. No matter how many times you tell him you know what’s best, he will just laugh and show you his better plan. I am pretty sure God laughs at me all the time because I like to tell him what I think should happen and he constantly tells me to have patience and trust. Genesis 21 tells the story of Abraham’s son, Isaac, being born. He waited 25 years for his son, he was 100 when he became a father to Isaac. 25 YEARS.. can you imagine waiting that long for something you wanted so badly. I cant even wait a week, let alone years.

Last time I was in a very hard season of my life, God showed me a song. I had never heard it before but one night I just started singing it while I was having an emotional breakdown (hey, it happens). Before the morning by Josh Wilson, one of the best songs for someone working on their patience and not understanding why you have to wait for God. I love the part where he says, “Cause the pain that you have been feeling, it cant compare to the joy that’s coming.” That night I sat and listened to this song about 3 times. I was so frustrated waiting and not knowing where the end was. I would get upset and continuously ask God, “where is this great ending?”, “you keep saying wait. Here I am and nothing..?” I finally realized me getting upset at God is not going to fix what I want, he wont give me my way just because I am pouting about it. I had to get my bible out, read it, go to bible study, go to church every Sunday, find people I could trust to talk to. My therapist was a huge help in talking me through having patience and trusting in God. A Christian therapist was like meeting with God, she told me stuff that even she would question how she came up with that (obviously Jesus). It was the best way to show me how to grow my faith and point out where God was when I thought he left me.

Guess what? I survived! it only took a few months for me to start understanding his plan and patience came easier and easier. Once I put all of my worries and struggles in God and only focused on how to grow my faith, I received so much peace with my situation and I was continent where I was. Even if the situation is not where you think it should be, I promise, God is going to give you everything you need to complete the task and he can give you all the patience in the world. If you would just stop, sit, and listen to him. He knows what’s best for each one of us, I mean he made us, right? Its up to you to listen and follow in his footsteps.

Much love,
Charity